I miss you... Do you have any idea how much I wish that you were here? Do you know how many times I tried to call you to hear your voice and realized that you are a world away that my phone won't even reach you? I know you miss me too, and I can't wait for you to come back. I have so much to tell you. I'm sure you do too. We both went through heartbreak, and are both trying to get over it... I feel your pain, you feel mine. You were always there for me, and I hope, that I was there for you too. During toughest times you comforted me and encouraged me. Talking to you always brought a smile on my crying face. You taught me how to be strong by doing it yourself. I don't even know how to thank you. Million "thank you" is not enough.
You taught me how special we are to have each other. It's such a blessing! I can't describe in words how lucky and thankful I am to have you in my life. You reminded me that there are different ways to look at things. Everything happens for a reason... "Don't cry cuz it's over, smile cuz it happened."
It seems like I am just follwing the path you once walked. I am doing what you used to do and still do.... I was hurt, just like you were. We cried, laughed it off, and cried again. and... again.
Two big smiles on my cell wallpaper. I really miss our little talks. Hope you are having a wonderful time. I hope you know how much I miss you. Please come back soon.
I miss you... I put your picture away but still can't stop thinking about you. Gosh, it's crazy. Maybe I am crazy. Stop. Don't think about it. DON'T. DON'T THINK ABOUT IT. Every morning I wake up, you are on my mind. Every night I go to sleep, I wonder if you had a good day.
I hope things are going well with you. Every day I pray for your little sister. I hope everything went just fine. "Everything is gonna be okay" That's what I told you.... I am so sorry that I couldn't do anything for you. I wanted to help you but I couldn't even be there for you. I am really, really sorry. I wish I could have done things differently. Regret was the last thing I wanted... too late now.
You know what I go through every minute, every day...? Gosh, too many things to remind me of you. Too many.
I wish I could just forget about you... no I really don't wish that. I know. All I need is time. I just need time. I tell myself, "Time will heal everything" But I am not gonna lie. I miss you. It still hurts. It still makes me cry.
あたしのtwin sis、びびがやってきた～！（＾＾）２泊３日でいっぱい遊びました！！！楽しかった！！！火曜日はクリスマスプレゼントを交換したあと、いっぱい語って、それからモールに行っていつものPF Changで夜ごはん。そのあと一緒に観る約束してたMemoir of Geishaを観て。そのあと家に帰ってきてからも、夜遅くまでいっぱい話していっぱい笑った。何をするでもなく、ただいっしょにいるだけで楽しくて、幸せ。びびはあたしの分身みたい。話すことが尽きない。初めて会った日から約５年半が経つ。うちらのまわりではいろんなことが変わってて、お互いいろんなことがあって、もううちらの通った高校も違う建物になってて、昔の友だちは連絡が途絶えてしまった人がたくさんいて、この５年半のあいだに本当にたくさん変化があったけど、うちらの関係だけはまったく変わってない。それがすごくうれしい（＾＾）
遼子たちと別れて、びびとあたしはインターナショナルへ。そこでびびは買い物して、夜ごはんは最近オープンした韓国料理のレストランに初挑戦！ブルコギとおすしを２種類頼んだ。結果、失敗。笑 どうりで人も入ってないはずやねー。まとゐ寿司か、あの直美ちゃんたちと行ったとこがやっぱりいい！サンチのことをどうしても考えてまう。一緒にいた年月っていうのは、やっぱり大きいと思う。みんないろんなこと経験しながら、大人になっていくんやと思うけど、辛い過去や別れが思い出になるのにはやっぱり時間がかかる。一緒に過ごした時間が長ければ長いほど。いい思い出、って振り返って言えるようになるのに、あたしは何年かかったやろう。木曜日の朝、びびは帰ってしまった。やっぱり帰ってもたら急にさみしくて、でもまたすぐ会えるからって自分に言い聞かせた。I miss you already...